delayed~

well, have not been blogged quite long.. and today have quite few things happened to me .. not exactly few but one thing.. at that time i feel quite helpless and do not know of any ideas to solve it and i relied mostly from my friends to help me try solve the problem.. In the end, my starting work at the same time my foundation programme on 3 july instead of the 12 june.. feel quite relieved that it is so called solved but at the same time feel sad that i cannot do my foundation programme with my classmates and colleages.. Like what hafiz and jolyn say look at the bright side of life.. : ) thanks to all who find ideas to solve the problems and enouraged me.. It really helped..

Feedbacks~

I just finished my night shift today.. Tomorrow will be morning shift... I know what the staff nurse said to me is true.. it seems like the other two student nurse seemed to be more willing to come to work and for me is like the opposite.. Then she also said i learnt something i will not go and do it.. but need someone to push or tell me to do it.. (like in school like that..) When the staff nurse ask me the same question i still have to look at my notebook.. instead of remembering it.. After she talk to me, i began passing report fast and she told me 'good'.. It gives me more motivation to do it more and better.. and while passing, my hands shake and i was nervous.. I better read up more and remember more things.. i do not want the senior staff to compare me with the other two student nurses.. So i am trying hard to do that.. tomorrow, i take the initiative to do the things that i learn.. and to be more efficient.. Left with only 2 weeks of attachment.. hopefully have improvements by then..

~2nd week of PRCP~

Coming to the end of the second week of the attachment.. first week we went for 3 days lessons... During these lessons we learnt a lot of things like drug calculations, admissions, discharges, the braden scales, labelling of specimen forms and so on.. (quite a lot in these 3 days.. heavy for us at first but we will be going through 21 days of lessons when we graduate..) still do not want to think so far yet..

Actually i did not expect the role of the staff nurse is very tough.. (i think in my heart, i know is tough but did not expect to be this tough..) i know everyone is going through the same phase as what i am going through.. last friday, i took charge of one person and was stressed over it by what to do at first.. and which forms to fill in.. and so on.. i wanted to burst out crying but did not.. Then when the matron talked to us telling us to take charge of 6 persons (half a cubicle), my friend and i almost cried.. (maybe because of the fear in us or what.. we managed to hold our tears in the end..) She do not want us to learn slowly but learn there and then.. After the talk, i thought to myself.. I feel take charge of 6 persons already so stress.. then what am i supposed to do if i were to take care of 6 persons.. i thinki i better read up more.. I will learn as much as i can.. well for now.. i will just enjoy my weekends.. :D

Exams.. AARRGGHH!

The exam period is here again for this semester.. and this is the time where everyone get so busy trying to finish revision at the last minute..(or is it only me..) Some of them will be like me very no mood to study do not know the reason at all.. (hhmm.. i wonder..) Some will be very hardworking.. revising many times.. and if do not understand any one of the topics.. i will panic.. haha.. actually i will ask my friends.. not panic.. All the best to my classmates (all of them) and all those who are having exams..

links

This is the links to my johari and nohari window..

http://kevan.org/johari?name=alyane
http://kevan.org/nohari?name=alyane

meaningful sentence

I find that this sentence is quite meaningful and true.. It is said by one of the lecturer during lectures.. something like to be a good staff nurse, does not always meet the smiley and cooperative patients.. but is when met with difficult patient that you will emerge to be a better person.. I wrote this down so that it will motivates me.. (hopefully) and hopefully throug these experiences, i will become a stronger and more thick skinned person.. (ha ha..) Of course, i have my friends to support me from behind!! : )

~Excuses, feelings...~

Well, been thinking of writing blog but everytime i forget to do so..(noticed i say the word "but" so whatever i say in front is of no use.. haha) You may think that it is another excuse that i have come up with and.. i do not deny it as it is one of my reasons..

Ever since one of the lecturer said about if you do not like the person because of certain characteristics in them that means you do not like that certain character in you.. i wonder if it is true.. and when i think about it, i slowly realise that it may be true.. acutally i do have people that i do not like.. and i fins they have some characters that i do not like them in me...

Yesterday was Amanda's birthday party.. Her 21st birthday.. ooppss i revealed her age!! and i met cheryl and vanessa.. hmm.. i know.. Have not seen cheryl very long.. and not sms her for quite long..(i sms her but no reply.. only when she need us that sms us..) i find that there is a gap between me and her.. First, may be due to the card that i sent to her..(why did i send such a letter to her?? i also do not know.. anyway it is over.. and what's done cannot be undone..) Secondly because we have not met up for very long.. so we from (may be) close friends to just plainly friends now.. which i find may be a good thing after all.. I hope to stay that way either.. (i do not want to know a person very well.. like from head to toe anyway..) After i say out, both amanda and vanessa also feels that way.. Amanda was so called tortured at her birthday party..( i hope i will not end up like her.. haha..) She become a dirty faced cat.. :P then her mother introduced us to her relatives, amanda's classmates.. (especially me.. she tell everyone that i am the future staff nurse.. feel quite honoured though..) In the party, did not quite talked to amanda.. except occasionaly when she is sitting with us.. Basically that is all.. for now.. :D

shooping spree~

Basically my title says it all.. shopping spree~ yesterday i feel that whatever clothes we (Jolyn and I) see, we want to buy it.. and we ask each other comments about the certain clothes we picked.. Jolyn even bought 2 necklaces.. one round and the other square.. Jolyn tried the two necklaces on me and we ( the salesgirl, jolyn and myself) all felt that the square one looked better on me.. when jolyn tried the same two necklaces, we all felt that the round one suits her.. In the end, jolyn did not really know which one suits her friend so she bought both.. I saw a blouse and skirt that i liked very much when i first saw it but i did not buy the blouse but i bought the skirt and the belt..My sisters say the blouse, skirt and belt did not matched.. so i do not know.. luckily i have a white spaghetti i bought that may match with the skirt.. haha.. : )