aLy@n3's JoUrNaL

delayed~

2006-06-09T19:56:00.000+08:00

well, have not been blogged quite long.. and today have quite few things happened to me .. not exactly few but one thing.. at that time i feel quite helpless and do not know of any ideas to solve it and i relied mostly from my friends to help me try solve the problem.. In the end, my starting work at the same time my foundation programme on 3 july instead of the 12 june.. feel quite relieved that it is so called solved but at the same time feel sad that i cannot do my foundation programme with my classmates and colleages.. Like what hafiz and jolyn say look at the bright side of life.. : ) thanks to all who find ideas to solve the problems and enouraged me.. It really helped..

Feedbacks~

2006-04-19T19:13:00.000+08:00

I just finished my night shift today.. Tomorrow will be morning shift... I know what the staff nurse said to me is true.. it seems like the other two student nurse seemed to be more willing to come to work and for me is like the opposite.. Then she also said i learnt something i will not go and do it.. but need someone to push or tell me to do it.. (like in school like that..) When the staff nurse ask me the same question i still have to look at my notebook.. instead of remembering it.. After she talk to me, i began passing report fast and she told me 'good'.. It gives me more motivation to do it more and better.. and while passing, my hands shake and i was nervous.. I better read up more and remember more things.. i do not want the senior staff to compare me with the other two student nurses.. So i am trying hard to do that.. tomorrow, i take the initiative to do the things that i learn.. and to be more efficient.. Left with only 2 weeks of attachment.. hopefully have improvements by then..

~2nd week of PRCP~

2006-04-08T22:32:00.000+08:00

Coming to the end of the second week of the attachment.. first week we went for 3 days lessons... During these lessons we learnt a lot of things like drug calculations, admissions, discharges, the braden scales, labelling of specimen forms and so on.. (quite a lot in these 3 days.. heavy for us at first but we will be going through 21 days of lessons when we graduate..) still do not want to think so far yet..

Actually i did not expect the role of the staff nurse is very tough.. (i think in my heart, i know is tough but did not expect to be this tough..) i know everyone is going through the same phase as what i am going through.. last friday, i took charge of one person and was stressed over it by what to do at first.. and which forms to fill in.. and so on.. i wanted to burst out crying but did not.. Then when the matron talked to us telling us to take charge of 6 persons (half a cubicle), my friend and i almost cried.. (maybe because of the fear in us or what.. we managed to hold our tears in the end..) She do not want us to learn slowly but learn there and then.. After the talk, i thought to myself.. I feel take charge of 6 persons already so stress.. then what am i supposed to do if i were to take care of 6 persons.. i thinki i better read up more.. I will learn as much as i can.. well for now.. i will just enjoy my weekends.. :D

Exams.. AARRGGHH!

2006-03-19T19:21:00.000+08:00

The exam period is here again for this semester.. and this is the time where everyone get so busy trying to finish revision at the last minute..(or is it only me..) Some of them will be like me very no mood to study do not know the reason at all.. (hhmm.. i wonder..) Some will be very hardworking.. revising many times.. and if do not understand any one of the topics.. i will panic.. haha.. actually i will ask my friends.. not panic.. All the best to my classmates (all of them) and all those who are having exams..

links

2006-03-09T23:15:00.000+08:00

This is the links to my johari and nohari window..

http://kevan.org/johari?name=alyane
http://kevan.org/nohari?name=alyane

meaningful sentence

2006-03-09T17:49:00.000+08:00

I find that this sentence is quite meaningful and true.. It is said by one of the lecturer during lectures.. something like to be a good staff nurse, does not always meet the smiley and cooperative patients.. but is when met with difficult patient that you will emerge to be a better person.. I wrote this down so that it will motivates me.. (hopefully) and hopefully throug these experiences, i will become a stronger and more thick skinned person.. (ha ha..) Of course, i have my friends to support me from behind!! : )

~Excuses, feelings...~

2006-02-05T19:31:00.000+08:00

Well, been thinking of writing blog but everytime i forget to do so..(noticed i say the word "but" so whatever i say in front is of no use.. haha) You may think that it is another excuse that i have come up with and.. i do not deny it as it is one of my reasons..

Ever since one of the lecturer said about if you do not like the person because of certain characteristics in them that means you do not like that certain character in you.. i wonder if it is true.. and when i think about it, i slowly realise that it may be true.. acutally i do have people that i do not like.. and i fins they have some characters that i do not like them in me...

Yesterday was Amanda's birthday party.. Her 21st birthday.. ooppss i revealed her age!! and i met cheryl and vanessa.. hmm.. i know.. Have not seen cheryl very long.. and not sms her for quite long..(i sms her but no reply.. only when she need us that sms us..) i find that there is a gap between me and her.. First, may be due to the card that i sent to her..(why did i send such a letter to her?? i also do not know.. anyway it is over.. and what's done cannot be undone..) Secondly because we have not met up for very long.. so we from (may be) close friends to just plainly friends now.. which i find may be a good thing after all.. I hope to stay that way either.. (i do not want to know a person very well.. like from head to toe anyway..) After i say out, both amanda and vanessa also feels that way.. Amanda was so called tortured at her birthday party..( i hope i will not end up like her.. haha..) She become a dirty faced cat.. :P then her mother introduced us to her relatives, amanda's classmates.. (especially me.. she tell everyone that i am the future staff nurse.. feel quite honoured though..) In the party, did not quite talked to amanda.. except occasionaly when she is sitting with us.. Basically that is all.. for now.. :D

shooping spree~

2006-01-15T19:54:00.000+08:00

Basically my title says it all.. shopping spree~ yesterday i feel that whatever clothes we (Jolyn and I) see, we want to buy it.. and we ask each other comments about the certain clothes we picked.. Jolyn even bought 2 necklaces.. one round and the other square.. Jolyn tried the two necklaces on me and we ( the salesgirl, jolyn and myself) all felt that the square one looked better on me.. when jolyn tried the same two necklaces, we all felt that the round one suits her.. In the end, jolyn did not really know which one suits her friend so she bought both.. I saw a blouse and skirt that i liked very much when i first saw it but i did not buy the blouse but i bought the skirt and the belt..My sisters say the blouse, skirt and belt did not matched.. so i do not know.. luckily i have a white spaghetti i bought that may match with the skirt.. haha.. : )

Second post of the year~

2006-01-13T14:34:00.000+08:00

This is the second post that i have posted for this year.. So far been giving presents to people whose birthday is in this month.. and i find there is quite a few from this class especially.. January babies!!

And then booking a chalet at downtown east with few of my friends.. and staying overnight in the first time of my lfe!! i know is exaggerating but it is true!! Quite excited about it though.. During lunch we even talked about our bad habits.. I think we were so loud that the whole canteen can feel our excitement.. (exaggerating again..) and not waking each other from our beauty sleep.. haha.. Do not know whether there is a vcd player there.. (Jolyn remember to ask..)

Have few projects compared to last semester.. but i find that there is one of the project is like the research project and food trails project that we have done.. Eventually is more like marketing.. (is like we are doing marketing management.. i do not know about you but this is how i felt..) Going to ask vanessa for help since she doing a course on business management and marketing.. (if i not wrong..)

Well, thinking of writing new year resolution as it is almost half of the month.. (Do not feel like writing it anymore..) :)

~short entry~

2005-10-12T20:13:00.000+08:00

Today is eveline's birthday.. and we celebrated her birthday by watching the movie wait till you are older.. It is quite touching and most of us cried..After that, we all feel that we must treasure each other as we do not have much time left to be together.. Haiz.. so sad right?? We can remember the times we are in year 1 till now.. and the memories did not fade as time pass by.. It will be stored in our mind forever.. hahaha..

These few days do not know why i am stressed.. Is it due to the emergency project? examinations in two weeks time? have not study for examinations? I also do not know.. All i know that tomorrow meet for project and i have not write out all the points yet.. haiz.. should i study first? or should i write all the points? i do not know.. one part of me tell me to study.. the other part tell me to write the points...

~Happy Birthday~

2005-09-23T22:06:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was my birthday.. Yet i find that the day went over so fast.. It seems like yesterday's event was like a tape or vcd being fast forwarded.. and before i know it, my birthday is over.. for today the day passes by quite slowly.. Do you think so?

Yseterday was also my clinical practical.. I do not know whether i am lucky or bad luck that my name was chosen with the last few but i get over it anyway.. I also found out that my next clinical test is on Mon (26/9/05).. Quite last minute.. Actually expected the date to be later of the week not starting of week.. Life is full of surprises.. and i also feel that i am not prepared for it.. Not enough practise, did not memorise it and all the stuff..

Today suddenly feel like tidying up the cupboard to put my books inside.. It seems that now that i arranged it, It is harder for me to get my things.. Even though it looked neat and tidy.. Did it imply that i am simple and normal person on the outside but complicated on the inside? Seriously, my paper crane is not finished..Always do certain things halfway then give up.. Even though i have chosen nursing now, will i give up halfway like what i did to the things i used to find it interesting to do?

~unknown~

2005-09-17T23:06:00.000+08:00

Well, after much thinking, i think what the assistant director said is correct.. We are afraid not the passing out as staff nurse part.. but we are afraid is the unknown.. hmm... seriously, we do not know what is the life of the staff nurse like because as student nurses, we concentrate on our skills and is like doing the juniors job.. we do not really practise what is the staff nurse job like.. this is like from 'N' level jump to 'O' levels examination.. This is a big jump.. That is what i think..

All i know that during the PRCP, we will be doing our foundation training.. which is all staff nurse job, the policy of the hospital and that type of things.. i think you can expect what we will be going through roughly.. Then we will also be going through many courses as well.. to build up both our self confidence and self-esteem.. (that includes polishing our skills too..)

good habits turned bad?

2005-09-12T13:59:00.000+08:00

I been thinking that i have changed some og my good habits..(which is i think not a good thing..) I was not even late during the primary and secondary school days.. but now.. especially in this year, i was late.. not only once but a few times.. and also need people to write my attendance for me.. haiz.. not only that.. i was not so glued to the television.. at least i can go off to school without sticking around to see any shows that i want to watch..(maybe because that time all morning session..) there is also one more thing.. i never slept so late.. i slept as early as 11pm.. and not later than that.. Nowadays i slept after 11pm.. i also finish my homework before the next school day..(maybe except some of the homework.. i do not know how to do..) Now i did my homework sometimes.. what is wrong with me?? how come my good habits turned to bad habits... why?? *becomes hysterical*

~urge~

2005-08-27T11:38:00.000+08:00

I have this sudden urge to write the blog.. do not know why.. but feel like writing.. haha.. i have decided to be as hardworking as possible.. like my classmate chan.. and then i also make sure i start looking through my past years books and notes to get ready.. Somehow or other i feel i must do this way.. partly because my memory and my skills not so good.. so need more practise.. and if i do not understand any module, i should borrow a book from the library.. try to learn as much things as possible..

I have been busy for the past few weeks.. rushing the projects that were supposed to be presented.. finding research, books, and articles.. staying back in school until quite late.. haiz.. and there have been problems arises.. maybe due to the tense and "wanting to finish the project as perfect and as quickly as possible".... well what to do, is part and parcel of life..

Today i just found out that i eat the wrong dosage for the medication.. supposed to be once a week and i ate twice a week.. no wonder my medication finished so fast.. hahaha..

hmm... yesterday, chan was saying that i was good tempered.. then i was thinking.. Am i? i am beginning to suspect myself.. : S

Questions ????

2005-08-08T17:44:00.000+08:00

I watched the korean show Da chang Jin this morning.. and i saw this episode where the nurse (Zhang de) teach chang jin all the skills she know.. There are 4 different colours for faces and how to treat.. and this type of herbs is for which illness.. and the teacher also make changjin memorize all the books.. When i saw this part, i feel that it may be useful to me too.. since i am also in this line.. so wanted to write it down when i am free... After that, i feel inspirational again.. hahaha..

I think back and wondered for the reasons being afraid to pass out as a staff nurse... Is it because i feel no confidence in myself? Is it because i feel that i do not have enough experience? Or is it due to lack of practise of the skills in the clinical area? hmmm.. there are many of these types of questions formulating in my mind.. so i also not sure myself..

~Ordinary test day~

2005-08-04T20:39:00.000+08:00

hmm.. today is the clinical theory test which i think did not go that well.. but i hope for a pass.. actually there was a big hint before the test.. one of the lecturers said it.. then i was thinking that is a hint to that particular person and i overhear it.. (hahaha..) Our clinical lecturer gave us a surgical scissors for nurses' day.. That was so sweet of her.. hahaha.. I planning to make a plait on both of my surgical scissors so that i know that it is mine.. Is it a good suggestion??

Actually i thought of something inspirational a few days ago.. but now it seems that this matter is at the back of my head and i could not figure out what is it now.. Maybe i can make use of this time to do something.. To: Jolyn, all the best to your clinical practical tomorrow!! Just make sure you remember your steps and you will be fine!! ^^ To: the rest of my classmates who is taking on Monday (Eveline, Xiaona, Sook wern, Lianna...) , All the best to you all too.. I know you all can make it!! Try your best!! :)

~sense of helplessness~

2005-07-21T11:26:00.000+08:00

Now i realise how helpless i can be when i found that my yarn is all tangled upwith 2 ends already knitted up.. At that time, my mind was to cut the yarn so that it is easier to undo the untangled yarn.. which is the easy way out but that is not the answer to the problem.. In the end, what i did was to ask for help.. (that is one way to do it.. ) but i cannot keep on asking for help right?? So i wonder next time when i am in a similar situation, what will i do.. My mother says that i must not be too anxious when my yarns are tangled because the more i pull, the more dead knots i will find.. (It is true though..)

~worries~

2005-07-08T20:09:00.000+08:00

I am feelining more and more afraid of passing out as a staff nurse.. after i heard what one of the lecturer told us about her past students.. Some of her students come and tell her that they regret not building up their confidence when they are in school and not remembering what they have learnt..(something like that..) Then the thought dawned to me that this may happen to me too.. especially i know myself that i cannot make decisions, not confidence enough and my memory not that good..(unless i revised my work..) and the part on presenting to other staff nurses who knows about the topic part.. makes me feel worse..(because when i present i will get nervous..) haiz.. tell me what to do!! Am i the only one feeling this way?? i see my other classmates look calm and not feeling afraid like me.. (Oh no!!)

Next is the being sub-group leader.. I become appointed as a sub-group leader and i never been a leader before.. Afraid that i did not do a good job.. or i mess up the whole project.. haiz.. If i go on worring like that, i think i will grow white hairs!! (hahahaha...)

feelings

2005-07-07T12:17:00.000+08:00

When asking parents about certain things, the parents will give you negative comments that may discourage you or make you feel like not doing that particular things at all.. That is what happened to me yesterday.. haiz..

Well, from the last attachment, i met many types of people..(not again!! haha) Some of the nurses that do not really care about the patients at all.. (the do not care type) Some wants the juniors or students to listen to her and if you don't, you will get it from her.. (hmm.. so demanding..) Some of the nurses will feel very happy to have the students around..(even though i want the staff nurse to be in charge but i do not get it..)Some of the staff nurses are willing to teach students skills while others just tell you to do this and that.. I think i stop here in case i go on and on (because the lists can be extremely long..) and also afraid that i will be one of them..

~long long time~

2005-06-19T13:41:00.000+08:00

well, i know it has been a super long time since i have last updated my blog.. but anyway, in this holidays i have joined knitting classes with jolyn.. i have finished the beginner course and thinking of whether to proceed to intermediate course.. hahaha. i was thinking if i want to do it, i will do it in the beginning of year 3 because this is the time when we all try to settle down for the beginning year.. see first.. have to discuss with jolyn..

yesterday i saw the lady teaching her customer how to sew the cloth.. it is not cross-stitch instead it is the poking type.. i do not know what is it called but i seemed to be amazed by it as usual.. i did not realise that my mum also learnt this before.. so i am going to get her to teach me.. but first i think better do one thing at a time..finish my knitting things first..

~at loss~

2005-05-07T12:14:00.000+08:00

hmm.. i was wondering how i would react if i was in my sister's shoes.. the incident happened at the computer lab.. and there is only one computer that is can be used to print things.. then she was transferring the things she want to print onto that computer when there is someone ask her whether she can use the computer first because she only have a few to print so my sister allowed her to use.. while she using, my sister continued to transfer her stuff to the printer.. while printing, the printer breakdown.. it is normal as the printer seems to have a mind of its own.. (hahahaha..) there is another group of girls crowding around the printer..(i wonder what they are doing there for? nothing better to do??) making snide remarks.. (not sure whether towards the girl or both my sister and the girl..) but my sister thinks the remarks is made towards the girl.. Both my sister and the girl was very angry with them.. The girl's friend tell the girl not to be angry with the group of girls.. As for my sister, she was angry until her hands were shaking.. (she is really angry..)then she said "EXCUSE ME" and the group stop talking for a while and they continued to make remarks..the girl walked away and my sister used the printer because she come first.. i ask the question how would i react if i were her.. my sister say i will keep quiet.. (i cannot imagine that scenario in my head..)

There are many types of people in this world.. Some nice to you but actually hypocrites, some are backstabbers and some are really geninuely nice to you..(usually is only a few.. ) i have not been to the working world yet so i not sure whether i can handle it..(hope so..) and i was wondering why i was the one who meet people who forces the other person to do something..(sometimes the force is literally or subconsciously.. ) I was invited to a gathering on one of the fridays.. and i do not plan to go.. when i messaged to person C that i am not going, she say "You do not want to go is it? Or you cannot make it? Or you do not want to pay? Just tell me, everything is negotiable. : )" (These are her exact words..) Actually is not the paying part.. Is just that if i go, i will only be talking to the same few friends that i am close to.. even i talked to others, i only speak a few sentences..( do not really know what to ask or talked about..) I feel that i was forced to go to the gathering even though i do not want to.. after that message i did not reply her back.. seriously, do not know how to reply her.. haiz.. do not know what to do.. anyway i have decided not to go and she cannot change my mind about it..

Hectic days?!

2005-04-20T08:07:00.000+08:00

well, recently i was doing my individual project and had no time to study my psychology..(no time management..) At the same time, i thought of my other subjects for examinations..paediatrics, biology and medical and surgical nursing.. i know i may stress whoever reading my blog especially my classmates.. but i think about it everytime and counting the days.. but anyway, i have presented my individual project.. after that presentation, i have a slight headache..(do not know why.. it seems that after tests or exams i am also like that..) i think i was nervous and chan say i keep on moving my fingers.. and i like rushing for time.. Hafiz says we are all rushing for time.. and he did not present some parts.. after a presentation day, comes a psychology test the very next day.. I tried access the e-learning but cannot go in.. do not know why.. i thin i better go back to study now.. hope i pass the test!! :D

fair?!

2005-03-31T19:08:00.000+08:00

Do you find the part about the grades for the clinical diary is fair? Seriously, i do not mind about the marks.. but today this topic was suddenly brought up.. (maybe because of what happened today..)

There are many views on this topics.. but i think most peole will feel is unfair..(look like i am writing composition..hahaha..) partly not fair because the staff nurse is not with the student nurses when they are doing their clinical skills in the wards.. sometimes if lucky, other nurses, clinical instructors or school lecturers will assess them.. besides they cannot expect the staff nurses to be with them all the time as the staff nurses are busy with their own work.. so the staff nurses will grade the student nurses according to the one skill they do.. If the performance of that one skill is not good, the staff nurse will grade it poorly..

Partly fair because the staff nurse grade the student nurses based on their performance.. do not really know what to say though if you were to ask me.. because like i said in the front, i do not mind the grades actually.. like what jolyn say, all the maks does not really reflect that we can beome good nurses in future... There is no absolute fairness in this world.. like saying there are different types of people you will meet in every line.. no matter which job you are in.. feel free to leave your comments regarding this topic or any other topics...(like debate.. hahaha..)

~mY dEcIsIoNs~

2005-03-25T20:45:00.000+08:00

I have decided to buy the beaded books to learn how to make the beaded earrings and bracelets.. and of course buy the materials to make them.. hahaha.. then when during the 1 month holiday, i decided to sign up for the knitting class and learn from the basics.. i feel that i must not be indecisive.. if i want to take up something, i must be brave to take a step forward instead of moving one step forward and backward.. (quite tiring too.. hahaha) As for the sewing that i am supposed to learn from lianna, i decided to do it.. when i finished the 2 tasks that i want to do.. or else i multi-task.. i also thinking of making flowers for my mother on mother's day.. (i forget when was it though..) As for my blog, i am trying to learn from lianna how to do this and that..(not taught yet...because have to go home..) Not forgetting my nursing job (of course..), i also trying to learn many skills and cope with the nervousness and anxiousness.. hopefully i can overcome it though..(including my indecisive part..)

I realised that i learn quite a few things too.. like cook rice, steam fish (this 2 tasks may look easy for those who know how to cook.. but for me, it is new skill..), making flowers, making stars out of straws, friendship bands, cross-stitch... most of the skills i learn learnt from friends.. except the cooking part and sewing.. from my mother..

p.s. by the way, i have added a tag-board in my blog.. so feel free to leave comments in it.. : )

tHoUgHtS~

2005-03-24T08:55:00.000+08:00

I have been thinking.. whether i am a last minute person.. i am sure that in the past i am not like that.. but now.. it seems i am like that.. usually i will study for my tests like 2 weeks before.. now i study the few days before.. see so much difference.. then i will also take my own sweet time to go to school.. at the last minute again.. (i think i complain too much already..)

yesterday, i saw the beaded bracelet and earrings.. it was so pretty.. actually i wanted to buy the book to learn how to do it.. but for some unknown reason (or maybe i think too much), i did not buy in the end.. maybe because i do not know out of many books and materials which one is better..(like people want to learn or do, i also want to do.. like copycat..) i wanted to take up new skill by learning knitting but in the end also did not sign up... planning to sign up and learn to do during my one month of holiday.. there is another thing.. the sewing that lianna do which is quite pretty .. wanted to learn but do not know when.. i have few that i wanted to learn.. like quite greedy right? want to learn everything..

IMH!! FrIeNdS!! sHoP fOr PrEsEnTs!!

2005-03-19T19:37:00.000+08:00

well today jolyn and i went to IMH to volunteer our services there.. (today was only the orientation day.. of course, not forgetting hafiz who was there..) i did not realise that IMH is so big.. look like resort from far without looking at the signs at the front.. there was this video tape on IMH from the past and now.. (by the way, the video tape was filmed 10 years ago..) The people in the room was divided into 3 groups, geriatric ward, men day ward and women day ward...(something like that..) after that is the refreshments time.. we made new friends..(even though i think i forget most of their names..oooppss...) we managed to click with the people in front of us..we talked alot until the person say she want to go home..(talked too deeply..) and on the way to the bus stop, hafiz and i walked in font and talked.. while jolyn and aces walked behind and talked.. Aces told us that the working life is totally different from schooling.. and told us to cherish the moments in school.. (similar to what someone say..<<<>>>> If you are good to that person, that person may not remember your good points.. but if you do something bad, the person will remember your bad points.. in the working life, the people around you may backstabbed you... i somehow or rather afraid this type of thing happening to me.. do not ask me why.. and afraid to graduate to the working life.. haiz..

jolyn and i went to buy present (VCD: nightingale) for my friend.. we saw one blouse which is quite nice but do not know whether fitting or not because cannot try.. then we went shop which sell cross stitches and kniting materials..quite interesting though but i find the lady not that nice..(maybe because she was knitting at that time and jolyn ask a lot of questions..) we bought fried sotong heads and dumplings..plus drink... and we went home..(stopping at the wrong bus stop..)

mE.....!!!!!

2005-03-17T14:41:00.000+08:00

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Your so lovable and adorable when people see
you they want a hug. But your probably napping
in a tree where they can't reach you. ^_^

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KeEp On TrYiNg!!!

2005-03-15T22:52:00.000+08:00

I managed to do my re test today and passed it even though the lecturer have some comments.. hahaha.. i am just happy that i passed it.. then next week i do not have to be stress on the clinical and the biology test.. Actually the credit should go to chan and one of the lecturer.. If chan did not tell that lecturer that we have biology test next week, we would not have a chance to do it today.. and the lecturer also gave us a chance to do re test by assessing one of us.. with another lecturer who is quite nice... Even though the lecturer told me that i am slow and need more practise, i will still continue to do put in effort in my work and practise my skills... i know that i did much better than yesterday... I want to thank all those who have encouraged, supported me and staying by my side.. i appreciate it!! i am also fortunate to have such friends!!

uNhApPy DaY!

2005-03-14T15:45:00.000+08:00

Well, today was my clinical test and i failed it.. because i broke the sterility, did not prepare properly the equipments and got very nervous over the whole test.. haiz.. i think is my fault for not really prepared for the test.. i just read it yesterday and think i can pass with that type of thinking.. i am not always so lucky.. Furthermore i told myself that is not a nice feeling to fail the test so do not failed it.. i also told myself that i should have more confidence and with the thinking "I CAN DO IT!" but i end up breaking the sterility and did not prepare properly.. i wanted to cry but i told myself not to.. when i come out of the room, i burst out crying.. cannot control my emotions well.. (try to but failed..) I hoped that i will not get urinary catheterisation for this test and i got it.. and the re-test i will be doing it.. i think i should blame myself for idling around and watching shows with my family.. And not really studying..(kind of get distracted..) Now i am trying to do CBT (2 times..) and get the steps in my head.. while resting i played the game... when i started thinking about the urinary catherisation(what happened in the clinical lab..) i suddenly panic... maybe have an impact on me.. (who knows..)

cHaNgEs In Me?

2005-02-25T15:31:00.000+08:00

hmm.. yesterday i ask jenny a funny question.. Do you think i grow up?? Maybe because she feels that someone in my class grown up.. Jenny tell me that i become more initiative.. earlier on, i ask her about the presentation.. (how i present to the whole class) she say that i become better than last time i presented but have to be happy as i presenting a campaign.. i feel so happy so i must continue to be like that.. (Actually, i ask a few people how i presented.. they say that i am better than last time..)

yesterday i was wondering how do you differentiate whether the person is a good friend or a bad friend.. because it seems that in the past (before i go polytechnic), i been making not so good friends except vanessa and amanda.. Making friends who make use of people, controlling people, command people to do this do that, tell people what they want for birthday, hurt people.. (Is that their true self? or am i just simple-minded?? In this world, there were many sorts of people.. It is dependent on what type of people you meet.. and so far i only meet a few nice ones..

Sometimes i also will hurt someone without myself knowing it.. because i do not think before i say or maybe i am blunt in my words.. Am i??

TwIsTs Of EvEnTs....

2005-02-18T13:30:00.000+08:00

well, i find there are turns of events happened because of the consequences of the act... like for example, if persons A,B and C do not do the normal routine of choosing the members... the other group members who are not in.. will feel unhappy and want to ask the reasons for the acts.. you may think i am still dwelling about that incident.. but this is the first time such incident happen to me.. so this incident sems to be encoded in my brain.. hahahaha..

second example, is i send a card to my secondary school friend.. writing about her bad points and wishing her Happy chinese new year and such stuffs.. (i know it has been quite long ago.. but i feel is the right time to tell her?? because one of my the other friend told me to tell her at right time...) In return, she sms me saying why are you telling me all this for?? why did you send this card for?? Is there anything else besides all these points? that type of question.. (i know is quite awkward for me to send her such card..i also did considered whether to send to her or not..(sorry i have said this point before.. i shall say it shortly..)

hmm.. People will mature through the events of life.. what do you think??

There is another event that happened last year.. (quite long..) Jenny and Jolyn have a talk with me regarding the project.. i do not know what is the reason... my tears start streaming down.. (maybe i am too emotional already).. hahaha..

i remember all these events is not because i have negative thoughts or attitudes towards it but i feel is just part and parcel of my life.. hahahaha :)

seriously, i beginning to be afraid to graduate out as a staff nurse.. afraid that i will do wrong things and get scoldings.. and forget how to do certain things or become very anxious if there are alot of things i have not do.. or forget alot of things i am supposed to know.. (i think i worry too much..) i told jenny yesterday and she told me there is a buddy system and he/she will help you.. (i hope so..but of course do not depend too much on him/her..)

different than before!!

2005-01-31T22:50:00.000+08:00

i feel that i am beginning to be influenced by jenny, jolyn and eveline.. somehow or other their thinking seems to be rubbing on me.. i am that type who is quite 'bao shou' person.. but then now you will see me buying clothes that i do not dare to wear out.. hahaha so big change..

By the way, the writing the card and writing 'bad points of the person to let the person know' does not work out at all.. it seems that she do not understands and tells another person about it.. now that person ask why i wrote that to her!! that time, i feel that my head feels heavy.. and confused.. am i doing the right thing?? but at least i manage to tell her about her bad points and she seems to be able to take it..

Today i tried the nasogastric tube a few times before it can get it in to the stomach.. need a lot of help before getting it in.. seriously, when you look, seems to be easy but actually, is a totally different thing when you do it.. and at last i manage to do it.. perseverance.. i think i need to read up a few things.. those i learnt before or come across it.. it seems that i do not even know..

Get it off my chest! FiNaLly!!~

2005-01-26T21:55:00.000+08:00

hmm.. seriously.. this matter has been in my mind(well, some parts of my mind.. ) for quite long.. i did not know i can suppressed it for so long.. is regarding my secondary school friend.. today i bought two inspirational cards.. one of them i am going to send to my this friend.. writing all my thoughts in it.. even though this may upset her or make her gets angry with me, i still have to do it.. because i am her friend.. i kept it from her in secondary school because i do not want to her.. i confided in my the other friend and she told me to get a perfect time to tell her.. i find the time is now.. i feel that as a friend i should tell her.. i seems to be struggling with the decision on writing it down.. is it not a good time to tell her? or am i doing myself a favour? am i bad to her by telling her how i feel towards her?? but no matter what i think, i still want to send it to her.. hope she will not get upset with it.. seriously, what is a friend or good friend??(does anyone know?) All i know i have a close friend..

Enjoyable Christmas Eve and Christmas Day!!

2004-12-26T14:09:00.000+08:00

i have not been updating the blog because nothing special happened except christmas eve and christmas day..
On christmas eve which is on the 24th december, i invited my friends, jolyn, amanda and vanessa to the chalet at downtown east.. jolyn was on time.. (actually quite surprising because usually she is the one late... i am also like that.. hahahah) and my other two friends as usual late.. but anyway jolyn and i went to the room first to wait in the air conditioned room and went out to meet the other two.. we ate mc donalds..(but seriously i ate mc donalds breakfast that morning..) and put our things back to the rooms and went to Escape Theme Park.. we played almost all the rides (rainbow ride, 'need 12 people to ride',alpha 8 {the 'banging and bumps ride'}, pepsi ride, train ride) and head back to the chalet.. we helped out with the foods.. like chicken wings, hotdogs, shishamu... (i know how to poke the chicken wings with the barbeque thingy.. hahaha.. i am so happy when i succeed in poking it!!)We had our fun with the barbequing and the piercing foods..(my relatives and my cousins came..)We ate chocolate logcakes before sending my friends off..
On Christmas day, i was expecting alot of people come.. but it turns out only two families came with grandmother and uncle.. even lesser people in christmas eve.. i did not really do much on this day.. but helped out in the eating.. hahaha my two cousins enjoy opening and closing the doors.. and walk in and out.. they also loved to blow the noisy thingy.. they were so noisy!! and the other two played with the party poppers.. they are all still quite small.. have to tell them nicely.. ^^

ReSuLtS oUt!

2004-11-27T12:55:00.000+08:00

hhmmm... i considered my results to be ok.. since there was not enough time to study..(actually there was enough time but then i did not make good use of it.. also have attachment during that periods..) i think i have this bad habit.. after i got my results, i feel that i can do much better than the result that i got.. if i put in more effort.. i always regret only after the results is out.. did not think about it before the examinations.. do not know why.. try harder next semester.. hope this thing do not happen again..(even though it did for the past 2 semesters..) now trying to print the learning guide but seems to be against me.. take so long to load..or is it there is something wrong..

Events happened in the two weeks of attachment..basically..

2004-11-19T19:57:00.000+08:00

I think those who seen me on last tuesday should have known what happened to me.. my face went pale (including lips) and has been standing very long..(actually not that long, just start work to be precise!) All i know on that day, i need to sit down but the staff nurses going to pass report so i did not go.. in the end, i went to the tearoom.. (i vomited part of my lunch and the waffle that i just ate) i went back to the ward and go back to the tearoom again accompanied by Brenda..(actually i don know whether she is nice or not...confused by her actions) i lie down and she take for me panadol.. during that period (after Brenda left), jolyn came in.. rest about 15 minutes, my classmates went in and we went out.. they say i look much better..
anyway, yesterday something happened.. i do not want to say much because jolyn has provided with the details basically.. but i saw (i think jolyn also saw) what the staff nurses do.. the staff nurses went to take her parameters and blood glucose levels.. (to check what is the main reason for fainting..) next time when such a thing happened at least we know what to do.. hahaha (hope such a thing do not happen..)
yesterday chan told me that quite a number of failures for HS 2035 so i become quite worried and excited for my results next week (25/11) I hope none of the failures from my group..( i mean the whole group..) (all pass with flying colours!)
nowadays it seems like quite a few number of people fall sick.. hmm.. i wonder if there is a virus passing around.. i hope i do not get it.. hee hee.. those who has fallen ill, get well soon!!
I know my dialet not so good.. especially when i know how to listen but do not speak well.. hahaha so i will try to work on it.. of course also work on my studies and my goal into becoming a good nurse.. ( i think that is everyone's goal.. those who are in nursing..)
hmm.. one of the nurse say the ward she is previously in have good learning opportunities and is always busy.. i know there is alot of learning opportunities due to new cases around but because there is no one to teach us.. and always busy with something...(or maybe i do not take my own initiative that why.. haiz..) and talking to patients.. everytime i try to talk to them, i do not know how to start a conversation with them.. (i think better try to or else next time will be worst..) or yeah i also must learn to read up more too.. hahaha : ) (this is my first time writing so long.. hope you all do not get bored reading it..)

when did i last log in??hhmm...

2004-11-14T13:40:00.000+08:00

It has been a long time since i blog in.. now having attachments for four weeks.. one week has passed.. that is very fast to us?? what about those who are having holidays now?? (hmm.. i think they have a lot of things to do.. am i right??) i think i want to learn how to do kniting.. a few days ago, i just finished doing the winnie the pooh pouch (which my sister give).. maybe i should take up some skills during the month of december.. hahahaha.. who is willing to learn with me??? did anyone watched the recent show ren wo ao you?? the show is going to finish soon.. in the show, there is one character who backstabbed her best friend just because of the guy she like.. i think this type of thing will happen in real life but i hope none of it found in my friends.. hahahaha

LaSt PaPeR oF sEmEsTeR!!!

2004-11-05T22:52:00.000+08:00

I find it hard for this paper... (HS 2035) maybe because it is medical surgical nursing.. learning in depths of the diseases.. study until all of us have headache and was wondering how to study for this module...after the exam paper, i was thinking the multiple choice i just choose that is not relevant and the short answer question.. (i do not even know what i am writing.. do not know how..) i see which questions i can answer i answer.. i know after examinations should feel happy.. but i do not feel the sense of happiness in me even though i waited for this moment quite long..(what is wrong with me??) i can tell from the look of others.. it seems to show me the relief after the exams..(i am really weird..)anyway we went out... first lunch then window shopping.. my friends found out something about me.. but i am not telling in here..so embarrassing *blush* i also hope those who knows do not tell others..(i trust them to keep a secret *zips the mouth*)i enjoyed myself even though we walked until our legs and backs feel tired.. next time go out have to really buy clothings.. hahahahahaha

did anyone forget me already?? -.-|||

2004-10-19T17:44:00.000+08:00

hahaha.. sorry do not have time to write blogs nowadays.. busy with both examinations and attachments.. (even though this ward is not as 'student friendly' as the other wards i have been to.. except two particular rooms in that ward..) ever since go to this ward and different room from the previous one that i go, i do not really feel like going to that ward.. i find that most of the staff do not really want to trust students at all.. and not really willing to teach students.. (even though i am not in all the rooms of the ward..heard comments from the other students) jolyn say that when i am in the previous room, i am always happy even before and after the shift.. but for now i do not feel happy.. (there is a difference by the way).. i also do not really enjoy learning when i am taught new stuffs.. but i will record down...(like i used to) It seems like when i mentioned about the things above, my mood seemed to be affected by it somehow.. i complained too much.. Of course out of all the bad things there are also good things as well.. the lecturer is there to assess or teach us things.. (but we also cannot be selfish and keep her to our side right? she should be shared so that everyone will benefit..)*weird* There are also nurses who are willing to teach us around the ward.. i do not know what else to say.. but anyway just give thanks to those who help you when you are in doubt or trouble... : P

worried! scared! irritated!? happy?!

2004-10-09T00:23:00.000+08:00

hmmm... i am worried in the sense about me being the staff nurse and do not know how to handle many cases especially with one who have many symptoms.. scared in the sense of the stories that i heard from my friends about their seniors and friends of them... will i be stressed until i will start to scold people off?? or will i just breakdown to tears?? actually, i myself also do not know.. Jenny told me not to cry in front of many people or else they think i am easily pushed around so go to the toilet instead...(hmm.. that is a good idea..) so i must be brave to face up and overcome the challenges or obstacles that come in my way...right everyone? so fast.. yesterday last day of school.. after this semester, left with 1 1/2 years more will pass out be staff nurse.. getting more and more anxious.. i find that the lecturer that teach my class clinical is very good.. teach us with the scenario.. and ask us what we should do and all that.. but he will not be teaching us next semester..

all the workload are almost off except...

2004-09-29T11:31:00.000+08:00

For semestral examinations and the psychology test next friday.. have not studied yet.. ooopppss.. : P hahaha.. now waiting in school for jolyn and jacqueline to go together to donate our blood.. Oh yeah i forget that eveline is also donating blood with us.. but i think we better go eat first or else we faint..*slap my big fat mouth* hehehehe.. this week our clinical is doing on ECG, cardiac monitoring.. physical assessment on heart and the cardiovascular.. did the ECG and the cardiac monitoring on monday.. left with the physical assessments if i not wrong.. by the way chan has a new blog (but do not know why cannot go in)..

astrology~ up to you to believe it or not!

2004-09-25T23:14:00.000+08:00

Section 1: The Inner You: Your Real Motivation
At heart you are modest and humble, and you rarely strive to be in the limelight or in a position of power. You have a sharp analytical mind, a keen eye for detail, and you prefer to observe, dissect, and study life from a distance. Conscientious and conservative, you can be relied upon to be careful, efficient, and thorough in your work and you take pride in doing a job well. What you may lack in self-confidence you often make up for in skill - developing expertise, technical knowledge, and competency in some specialized area. You are adept at using your hands to create or fix things, and meticulous attention to detail and careful craftsmanship are your forte. Some would say you are a little TOO meticulous, for you can be extremely critical and petty if everything is not done exactly as you think it should be, and you worry about things that other people consider trivial and unimportant. You like to organize, categorize, and arrange everything into a logical system, and you are often distinctly uncomfortable when something does not fit into a neat category. Disorganization vexes you. You probably wish that you were not such a perfectionist, for besides being a stickler for details, you can be mercilessly self-critical as well. Whether in your environment or in yourself, you tend to focus on the flaws, with a desire to improve, refine, and perfect. You are strictly factual, truthful, and scrupulously honest in your self-estimation, and you often do not give yourself enough praise or credit.

Section 2: Mental Interests and AbilitiesYou are an exacting perfectionist with a clear, logical, analytical mind and an aptitude for work that requires meticulous attention to detail and efficient organization. Well-grounded and pragmatic, you tend to develop specialized skills and technical expertise in some practical field. Knowledge, ideas, and theories don't really interest you unless they are useful in a tangible way. You are inclined to analyze, measure, and dissect everything and to miss nuances, subtle shades of feeling and meaning. Your strengths are in your precise thinking, careful craftsmanship, and mastery of technical skills. You tend to be very good at what you do and critical of others' work if it does not meet your high standards.

sorry if too long.. hehehe.. the above info is from.. astrology.com

~b.U.s.Y w.E.e.k~

2004-09-24T17:15:00.000+08:00

today is the dateline for the assignment that i have been working on it this whole week.. sort of a last minute thingy.. i tried my best to complete it by staying late at night to type, edit and let my friends read it.. though most of the amendments were done only yesterday, i still manage to complete it..(actually the number of words for my assignment is not enough.. ) luckily jacqueline saved me..hahaha with 1006 words.. she helped me to add words and edit the assignment two times.. then i tell her i will treat you for the help she have given me.. i think jolyn and chan also deserve the treat.. they also help me to edit my assignment.. left with one minute to hand in the assignment i rushed to the pigeon hole to hand it in.. on the way, i met the lecturer whom i supposed to hand in to.. i overtake her and she asked me if i need to hand in the letter.. i do not remember replying her.. on my mind, the only thing that i can think of is to hand in my assignment.. i managed to hand in just on time.. *phew that was very close* now with nothing on my mind and do not feel like studying, i write today's entry of this blog..

Frustrated!! >:(

2004-09-21T16:15:00.000+08:00

haiz.. i do not know what and how to write the law composition.. can someone help me?? or maybe because i am topo nervous as the deadline is on friday.. i only write about one quarter of the composition.. : ( anyway, the inspirational stories that fiona and jolyn type in their blogs, reminds me of when i wrote reflections in secondary school.. this gives me an idea of writing my reflections in my blogs.. the research methods test is hard.. hope to pass the test..

ytd both the ICAs go smoothly!! : )

2004-09-18T13:33:00.000+08:00

hmm.. like what my title say.. my 2 ICAs went really smoothly.. firstly it was the psychology.. before this presentation, i do not feel nervous at all.. maybe partly because i am only involved in the game part.. the theory part, was the rest of the group.. the game was all of us in the group.. during the game, there was one student came from the other room, telling us to keep our voices down because they have graded presentation.. we are also having graded presentation.. anyway.. after the whole thing, the lecturer wants to comment us on our presentation.. she say is good but the game should not involve the whole class.. she will give us distinction.. serious speaking.. i did not get this type of good marks before.. so we have all done well!! *clap**clap* next is the maternal and infant ICA.. i posed as the pregnant woman in the three trimester.. of course i am not really pregnant.. but placed jackets and pillow underneath my long dress.. at the start of the ICA everyone was excited in what i am going to do and clap very loudly.. *embarrassed* everytime i placed something underneath my dress, the class like laughed.. one part, the lecturer comented that the baby in the first trimester is bigger than hers (by the way, her baby in second trimester)..*embarrassed*after the whole presentation, the lecturer commented on our presentations..(there is another group presenting not only me and xiaona).. our results are similar.. with the comments of our lecturer, we will be able to improve our presenting skills.. : ) yesterday, i not feeling well.. been having stomach aches ever since before the clinical test.. do not know why.. : ( today slack the whole day.. better start doing more of my law essay or else cannot finish..

PaSsEd ClInIc@l TeSt!!!

2004-09-16T13:40:00.000+08:00

i passed my clinical test (i think i get just pass.. so must practise more..) even though there are mistakes that i made.. no one is perfect right?? the mistakes that i made can be a lesson to be learnt.. (correct syringe size, correct needle size, aseptic technique, prepare the equiment)... that should be all.. ; ) oh there is one more thing, i too nervous that the needle is shaking.. the examiner say that the patient is in pain... ooopppsss... even though i get comments that i should not be nervous by xiaona, jolyn, ai fang and jenny, i still feel nervous that i have a stomach ache.. now i worry about the psychology and the maternal and infant care... 2 ICAs tomorrow.. next time must calm myself down before tests, examinations and ICAs... : )

TeSt Is OvEr!!!

2004-09-14T13:39:00.000+08:00

well, this is only the first test of the week (which is biology practical and theory test).... anyway i should be happy that it is over.. right?? but i do not seem to be happy (do not know why?? or am i still thinking about the test?? or is it that i do not show it??) hope i pass today's biology theory and practical test.. i am the type of person who cannot concentrate at home.. maybe too many distractions at home already.. want to go to a nearby library to study but too lazy.. if go to school, travel quite a distance.. i can confirm that i cannot study last minute.. actually know long time already but i still do that.. next test coming up.. clinical practical on IV therapy, blood transfusion, injection.. better study early.. later have project discussion in the one hour break.. and this friday have two presentations..

FiNaLlY!!~

2004-09-09T23:44:00.000+08:00

finally can go home together with someone who have not been going home with us..(not metioning names here..) on our way home, we talked about ghost shows from the television..(which i still do not get it.. catch part and parcel of it only..) and reached to the sensitive part again.. (hmm.. do not know why we actually go to that extent but what to do?!) talked about my character (stand up for myself.. do not allow people to bully you.. but i afraid to make that person angry..will they?!) and pointed to each other character... hmm.. i do not want to talked much on it.. because is personal.. : P earlier on, before the clinical test (which i just hoped for a pass and the whole class to pass with good grades..), xiaona said something about jolyn's (sweet) and mine character (innocent)...decided to finally go to eunos with jenny and jolyn.. next 2 weeks going to be busy.. we are going through together!!! : D

sTrEsSfUl WeEk!!!~

2004-09-07T22:52:00.000+08:00

haiz.. so many tests coming up.. no wonder they say year 2 so stressful because they place the workload for year 2 very heavy.. that is why like that!! : ( this week have one test which is on thursday.. clinical theory test.. and i have not study finish yet.. (to be honest!!).. next week have biology practical and theorytest(not prepared yet) .. plus a presentation.. psychology ICA(halfway completed).. another ICA next week also.. maternal and infant care ICA.. (halfway completed) there is more to come.. law composition have not started.. (is my fault actually... start at a last minute..)anyway all i have to say that there is more ICA and tests to come!! i think because all of us feels the stress so can be "a not so good mood" at times..(including me!!) Am i complaining too much? or am i not hardworking enough?? ( i think is both..) .. i am sure that everyone can go through these hard times!! Hope veryone will do well for the coming ICA or tests!! : D JIA YOU!!!

Is A hApPy HaPpY dAy!!~

2004-08-28T20:35:00.000+08:00

today we went ai fang's house for a pot luck kind of thingie... and the food on the table were so mouthwatering that i keep on pinching the food.. (so naughty right??) during the eating, we were talking about a couple in our group.. (do not want to disclose any names to make it confidential) then one person say that she remembers something that maybe connected to that.. (hhmm.. how true.. we all also do not know.. just our assumptions only!!) we stayed about 4 something and walked our way to the MRT station.. when we were on the way home, we talked about something that i feel embarrassed and quite gan gai about it.. (and do not expect me to say it.. is really embarrassing.. *face turned red..*) hmm.. maybe i am not ready to manage this type of thing yet.. hahahaha : D

excersing day!!

2004-08-25T23:31:00.000+08:00

today we played badminton and i am better when i first played it.. thanks to those who encouraged me.. (jolyn, jacqueline, xiaona, hafiz, eveline and etc.) : ) i played better with a few mistakes here and there.. along the way, there are also encouragements from those mentioned above.. we can also apply this to our daily work..(even though we always lazy or just only practised a few times..) i feel happy when i am able to do it.. i tried presenting by not reading everything from the transparencies but also add some of my own words... and the lecturer say good.. and i feel happy that i am able to do it.. there were many sayings...' when there is a will, there is a way..' or 'if you can do it, you will be ableto do it..' another one is, 'if i can do it, so can you!!' hope these sentences could be encouraging to you all out there.. : D i also went gym with jacqueline and eveline.. i went there because i promised miao chin.. (actually do not want to go...) but anyway. managed to lose 0.3kg.. is it less or more?? at least lose some weight.. ha ha.. spent there for about 2 hours.. altogether we exercised for 3 hours (with break in between.. we are not super women you know??)

Enjoyable and learning day!!

2004-08-18T20:12:00.000+08:00

start lessons @ 8am today in the morning.... first lesson is biology.. continuation to endocrine system.. the lecturer says that the martini book teach another way of learning by having flash cards and can read while waiting for the bus, in the toilet.. the lecturer herself also suggest another way by drawing the topics into mind-maps.. but jolyn says it is harder to do mind map for biology... i try to do see how is the outcome.. ^^ next is medical-surgical nursing..the lecturer asks a lot of questions to so called test our knowledge.. but most of it is answered by Richard.. (at that time, i was wondering.. i also try to know the diseases well.. so that i can answer her questions..) i feel that most of the questions she ask is about pathophysiology.. i think the important subject now is biology..we went to eat lunch.. after that, we start walking to the badminton court to play nice game of badminton.. (my skills really forgotten at first.. quite lousy.. but have improvements.. : ))not only myself have this problem.. others too..(only a few of us actually..) i am sure that with more practise we will be able to play well!! right??

Saturday: spook show!! Sunday: CBT -.-|||

2004-08-15T10:33:00.000+08:00

as you know (from the previous entry), i went to watch a show called the spook show.. with eveline, jenny and jolyn.. when we first went in there was one of the screen showing the girl running away from something.. the girl cannot sleep (insomia) and keep having nightmares.. her spirit came out of her body.. then were evil laughing.. jolyn also followed laughing.. (hmm.. maybe get motivated by the laughs..) before we went in, we thought it is a scary because of the title 'spook show'.. we watched the show.. it is a magic show actually added with christanity... we ate dinner at kenny rogers and i ordered the expensive meal.. the baked fish.. jolyn, jenny and eveline ate quarter chicken.. (next time i am going to try!!) i tried a little and it tasted quite good.. except that the service is too good.. they are in a hurry to clear the trays and plates.. we were wondering if only foodcourt have such service.. back to today.. on a nice morning have to do intravenous cannulation and therapy notes.. have to go through.. : ) must not give up right??

Do you know yesterday was Friday the 13th!!

2004-08-14T12:43:00.000+08:00

Even though it is Friday the 13th.. which is considered bad luck, i was not at all affected by it..(*phew that was very close*) Everything went smoothly for me yesterday.. : ) i did not think much of bad luck and that type of stuffs at all.. i give it a try in doing presentations with explanations like what Hafiz and some others do.. (most of the time, we usually present everything from the transparencies or paper.. this will make the audience feel bored with it.. and even do not understand what the terms used..) i managed to do the presentation with my face as red as the tomato and feeling the heat from the face.. (i am always like that when come to presentations) During breaktime, eat dinner and went to e plaza to do nursing CBT even thoough most of the time, walking here and there.. get irritating with the profiling display.. i try 3 computers from the other half of the lab and found that there is no profiling display at all.. so fuming mad.. >: ( today i am going to watch a show and meeting my friends at city hall.. Hope everyone have a nice weekend!! : D

results of the personality test

2004-08-06T00:02:00.000+08:00

Cattell's 16 Factor Test Results

Warmth		66%
Intellect		46%
Emotional Stability		38%
Aggressiveness		30%
Liveliness		54%
Dutifulness		70%
Social Assertiveness		42%
Sensitivity		50%
Paranoia		42%
Abstractness		66%
Introversion		46%
Anxiety		82%
Openmindedness		34%
Independence		26%
Perfectionism		50%
Tension		46%

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ICA-- disasterous...... : (

2004-08-04T10:29:00.000+08:00

luckily we finish the ICA finally and have one load off our backs.. hahaha :D Just hoped for good grades.. so called joined the nyp pals... by filling up my names but if not free, is ok.. hafiz, lianna, chan and veni also joined.. :P at least have people whom i know.. Recently my handphone spoiled.. and it seemed that this year i feel bad luck because the BCLS, the clinical diary not marked and handphone spoiled.. another thing is the ICA the teacher feel that is not so good..but vanessa told me that it has nothing to do with luck.. so i just left it as it is.. now the printer bully me.. i put black and white.. now the words is difficult to see with grey background... haiz..

fine day : )

2004-07-31T10:40:00.000+08:00

yesterday was the last day of attachment.. next week will be going back to school.. i feel happy going back to school but the thought of the ICA makes me do not want to go back to school.. hee hee.. it seems that the things i did yesterday seems to be lesser than what i did before.. do not ask me why i feel this way.. but last minute start exploring the cupboards and writing the medications down.. (maybe too busy to even explore the cupboards) yesterday also seems to be a bad day for me.. did things last minute, did things wrongly.. in the end they all come out nicely.. : P

MoNdAy Is HeRe AgAiN!

2004-07-26T19:17:00.000+08:00

hmm.. i do not really know what to type today.. but i just hope jolyn recovers from both her fever and her blues.. : p Jolyn, you can do it!! i know you can!! and i know you will!! today i filled up the forms for investigations.. finally my careplan is finished and handed in.. a load off my mind.. hee hee.. i learnt how to fill up forms for investigations.. : D All nursing students out there.. (including jolyn..) do not feel discouraged when you ask questions or someone treat you unkindly.. i know you all can be a good staff nurse in the future!! do not think you are stupid.. is just that there are certain things you do not know of yet.. :)

normal day

2004-07-24T20:55:00.000+08:00

i try a few times but my wordings cannot be published out.. haiz.. : ( anyway when i want to write my blog, i found out that the blogger has been changed.. SO HAPPY!! : P yesterday (23/7), quite tiring.. after the attachments in the morning, i have to go to school for HS2035 project.. as the ICA is on week 5.. so fast right?? We are the first group to present.. there are some confusion and frustration in the group so decided to go down to eat dinner and relax.. it helps alot though.. : ) (we have been working from 7 to 3 and feeling very tired.. sleepy and have some irritation too..) we managed to clear the doubts.. today (24/7) went to bishan junction 8 with vanessa and amanda.. watched the movie Ella Enchanted.. but i think 13 going to 30 is even more humorous.. hahahaha : D i think better save $$.. used up half of the money at the beginning..

I PASSED MY BCLS PRACTICAL!!! YAY!!!

2004-07-15T12:00:00.000+08:00

HOORAY!! passed my BCLS practical even though i am at the third attempt.. luckily for me, the examiner tell me to do over and over again (at least 3 tries)or else i think i am going to fail.. but anyway at least i pass.. right?? i so happy... i jump up and down like a monkey.. yesterday,after miss wong called regarding my clinical diary problems, i cried and wzas wondering "why always this type of things (clinical diary have columns that is not ticked, i did not pass my one-man CPR...)always happened to me!! i tell my mother about my BCLS practical..

Is this day considered a good day or a bad one???

2004-07-13T12:20:00.000+08:00

I am going to complain again... hahahaha :) today is my BCLS practical.. and i did not pass the one man CPR part..and considered the 2 man CPR also did not pass.. :( because i did the 2nd attempt, so i left with the 3rd attempt.. ONE LAST CHANCE LEFT!! AARRRGGGHHH!!Have to make full use of the last chance so i am re-taking on thursday...maybe too nervous for the test.. actually not only myself failed.. others too only 4 managed to pass overall.. That is so lucky!!! They are fated to pass.. i know i am not suppose to be happy that someone (2 persons)did not pass but then because they also have st john background (i mean they joined st john in secondary school..)like me..(even though i am bad at the skills in st john and did not really participate in the activities...)I just hoped that everyone will pass on thursday on the re-test.. PRACTISE HARD EVERYONE!! I saw the anime shown on tv mobile.. is so nice!! feel like buying the vcd but no $$.. actually i still want to buy a few things before this.. so have to save $$... :)

second week of school

2004-07-12T13:43:00.000+08:00

i still feel that jolyn can join the debate team.. because she is really good at talking and her uses in the language english.. hehehehe.. then when fiona join the team, they become very invincible... hahahaha :P today we did on the BCLS practise.. for tomorrow test... then the lecturer previously saying that you learn CPR not for the test but for saving lives... i think for me, most likely to pass this test so that it is better for the person i am saving.. hahaha.. We (jolyn, jenny and myself) was hoping not to get the 3 lecturers whom we have slight conflict with.. (i am not mentioning the names... better.. )sometimes when i read the stories posted on the internet especially chinese stories (not exactly stories but novels), i feel that "wow! they write so well and nice!" and was thinking of writing one too...i can try to though.. ;)

p.s by the way i think jolyn can be a story or novel writer.. because she always writes long blogs.. :D

~continued from the previous post~

2004-07-11T00:00:00.000+08:00

i forget something.. i tell myself that today the compression and the ventilation MUST do correctly... no matter what... i managed to do the ventilation and compression but the position is wrong.. so have to correct on it.. :)so i learnt something.. MUST DO WITH DETERMINATION EVERYTHING YOU DO!!!

rainy and cold day!! painful and tiring!!!

2004-07-10T23:39:00.000+08:00

today went back to school to do BCLS which is CPR.. actually quite early at 9am.. but at least we practised a few times..(especially all the procedures.. we very merticulous one.. -.-|||) then there is one dummy very hard to compress... (the first ten managed to get green light but the last five i get yellow light...) at the last minute, i practised on the compression and discover that i get the wrong position... the past few days i see brenda and jacqueline like do quite well for the CPR and i feel like a bit inferior.. (partly because they joined st john previously and could do as well as before.. for me, it seems that i did not do as well..) so i try and try and finally get.. now my problem is positioning...haiz.. but i just hoped that everyone will or should i say MUST do well in the BCLS on tuesday..and MUST get all the compression, ventilation and position all correct!! anyway today eveline, jacqueline and myself went to bugis and suntec.. window shopping and gossiping about people..(i know quite bad. hahah but sometimes cannot help it!!)

eyes want to close... |-) yawns

2004-07-07T21:25:00.000+08:00

today is the third day of school.. have like a mini fair in school since yesterday.. try to do my work but then i already photocopied the websites already.. do extra work.. :) i tried to download the e-learning to my diskette but it seems to download to my computer in stead.. Can anyone tell me what is going on?? i feel frustrated over it.. haiz.. cool down..

TiReD!!!

2004-07-06T09:35:00.000+08:00

yesterday was the first day of year 2.. a new chapter of my life.. i guess.. the space in the station were filled with many students..(at least 3/4 of the space is occupied by students..) for the very first time, there is an announcement for the people to leave the station as it was overcrowded... i was one of them waiting for eveline.. we just started school and our lecturer told us that next week have BCLS test..(i think we better and faster practise more..work hard!!) today.. well.. is the 2nd day of year 2.. today start school in the afternoon..

changes day!!

2004-07-04T18:13:00.000+08:00

Finally i chose the blog background that i like.. PINK!! hahahaha i think vanessa expect the background to be pink anyway... today i tidied my table..(but not really tidied.. push the unwanted stuff to one side of the table..)i looked through the lecture notes.. but did not really looked through biology..(partly do not really understand..)then i come online, hoping someone will be online.. :) so fast tomorrow have to go to school.. somemore youth day.. no holidays for us!! :( Are we not considered youth anymore?!

any other day

2004-07-03T17:24:00.000+08:00

i did write something this morning but the blog did not come out.. wonder why?? :S anyway today jolyn and i went to school early to buy lecture notes.. and have to buy for 2 other classmates or should i say colleages? i went to computer lab as dear jolyn have not reached school yet.. if i have known this would happen, i would take my own sweet time to go.. hahaha which i do not think i will.. hmm.. i actually read through the lecture notes and i did not know that nursing have law.. i meant that i did not know that nursing have to learn law.. looks like very difficult.. but do not worry i will not be tumbled down by a setback.. i will try harder to overcome it (including other modules and the law one..)

something meaningful... : )

2004-06-26T17:23:00.000+08:00

I found this in the tearoom (or they called pantry) pasted on the board.. I read it and found it meaningful...

Most destructive habit: worry
Greatest joy: giving (is better to give than take)
Greatest loss: loss of self-respect (if you do not respect yourself, how are you going to respect people.. Right? Seen in shows)
Most satisfying work: helping others (is good to help others)
Ugliest personality trait: selfishness
Greatest problem to overcome: fear
Most effective sleeping pill: peace of mind
most crippling failure disease: excuses
Most powerful loss of life: love
Most dangerous pariah: a gossiper
Worst thing to be without: hope (so be hopeful)
Dealiest weapon: tongue (that is how people can talk)
Two most power-filled words: "I can" (and i will)
Greatest asset: faith
Most worthless emotion: self-pity
Most beautiful lattire: Smile! (you are on candid camera?)
Most prized possession: integrity (and pride?)
Most powerful channel of communication: prayer
Most contagious spirit: enthusiamsm (i not sure if is correct)

fruitful and interesting day!! ^^

2004-06-23T18:07:00.000+08:00

Today learnt alot of things even though it seems that we learnt before.... i mean that the things we learnt today is the proper way.. First we (actually considered i)learn how to monitor the patient.. whether he/she able to do her ADLs or not.. with the rating from 1 (total assistance) to 7 (complete independence)... staff nurse taught me and then i tell those who do not know about it.. next learn about wearing clothing from weak side to strong side... and take off from strong side to weak side... (actually taught before but i forget) i am so forgetful!! hahahaha :P blood culture that the doctor collects from patient.. the doctor asked jolyn to prepare the equipment.. she ask the staff nurse and we chiped in to help... We (jolyn and myself) was told by the staff nurse that observation is very important as these signs will tell you about the organs in the body (eg. urine, faeces, blood...)i was told about transferring of patient from commode to bed and on bed... which side to hold and NOT to pull clothes..(even though i think i did that.. ooopppsss!!)the commode have to be 90 degrees (told by jolyn) and one leg have to be in between the patient's legs... We (jiang yan, jolyn, ai fang and myself) observed about the removal of stitches... (You must be thinking "wow" you can learn so many things in one day then the rest of the attachment must be fruitful too!! Yes! You are right!!) hahahaha... :)

a busy and not so busy day?!

2004-06-22T17:01:00.000+08:00

today quite busy in the morning but reach in the afternoon not so busy... :P oh yeah!! i forget!! For this 2 weeks, i am attached to the rehabiliation ward.. I feel that in this ward, the people there have to re-learn skills like walking, throwing, running... they also have to re-learn in how to meet their needs.. i also learn many things (doing the intake output chart properly, fax to another place, learn new short forms, new medicines...)even though i work in this ward for 2 days.. today i get scolding from one of the nurses.. (that is not so good!! hahahaha)for the parameters chart.. (so i try not to do that again..) (especially when she is around? even when she is not around) Jolyn and i get shooed by the staff nurses to go home.. (like get rid of the thorns in their fleshes? nah!) i think they wants us to rest...

mixed feelings of being bored and afraid :(

2004-06-20T17:13:00.000+08:00

Nothing much happen today.. but i just hoped that my friends would be online though... i feel lost in writing my clinical diary.. wanted to say that i want to learn how to schedule drip and putting the drip on machine but i think cannot do... because i am in year 1 so i do not know.. there are somemore things that i want to do but i just afraid to write too many things down... if i manage to do new things or not in my objectives then i write it down... anyway, i will try my best in everything i do and take the initiative to learn new things.. :)

a "raining" day!!!

2004-06-19T12:23:00.000+08:00

today is a beautiful morning.. i think... let me talk about yesterday (18/6)... hhmmm... yesterday quite busy even though i have already experienced it on thursday, 17/6...but seems to me is busier yesterday.. i brought the people who able to walk themselves to the shower first.. then do the rest on the bed.. only wiped... and changed clothes (of course!)i do not exactly know the sequences but i know that i changed the dressing before the patient when home..(on thursday, i also did that!!)i also feed the patient and try to start a conversation with them... try to understand what some of them wants.. even though i did not used words but pointing here and there... i did admission on a patient who just admited... and met one whom i met at the previous ward... happy to see her but not happy because she in the hospital again... hope she will get well soon... towards the end of work, i said all my good byes and thanks to all the patient and nurses whom i cared and worked for... i almost cried but i did not.. i controlled my tears... i liked the quotes that fiona wrote in her blog... ^^

confused :S (why?!)

2004-06-12T12:44:00.000+08:00

i write about yesterday (11/6) first... yesterday is a teary day.. partly because i am not brave and thick skinned enough ... beside that mistake, i also do mistakes in the parameters chart... the smell in the disposal room is so overwhelming.. actually is my mistake again... (i not sure whether to put in the machine or the flushing there... mistakes and more mistakes.. hahahaha but i hope i do not repeat the same mistakes in the future.. with mistakes, the person will learn from it and mature(!?) today (12/6) i woke up with a headache.. maybe not enough water or from yesterday incident... i do not want to mention it anymore..

paranoid me...

2004-06-11T00:46:00.000+08:00

finally the error is solved.. hahaha :D today i personally feel that i being paranoid.. knowing that the blood pressure is normal, i go and tell the staff nurse.. i also irritated Ai fang.. (she seems irritated but maybe due to the pain..) i irritate alot of people today ai fang, staff nurse and jolyn..(?!) i think i been too busy pouring out my problems that i do not care about other people's feelings.. The high dependency seems to be busy today.. adnormally busy.. and the staff nurse all busy... i will stop here now..

tired... sleepy.. painful...

2004-06-07T17:28:00.000+08:00

hello.. anyone miss me?? hahaha lolx :P today is the start of my wonderful attachment :nono: too wonderful that my legs feels painful and tired... hahaha but anyway i am attached to the orthopaedic ward... about bones and joints.. hmmm.. we met our classmates and going to the same ward... :) i am so looking forward to tomorrow attachment...

i do not enjoy the gathering at all.. seriously...

2004-06-04T10:35:00.000+08:00

Today is my class gathering... is my secondary school friends... not all coming anyway.. luckily the one that changed ever since go JC didnt come.. heard that she become proud and arrogant le... i do not want to gossip about her anymore.. hahaha hope not too late.. cannot go home late as usual.. :P last friday also class gathering but i think last week more people.. hehehehe this time quite few people not coming... hmmm.. do not know what to say... next week attachment le.. i do not know whether i want my holiday to finish or not or attachment to come.. :S but no choice it will come soon...

looking forward to the bbq and eating part....^^

2004-05-29T20:06:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i have a class gathering at East Coast beach at Pit 22 (my birthday date.. hahahahaha :P).. :) but i find it too windy.. do you think that way?? hee hee.. the guys in my class have not arrived.. left us girls to start the fire... with 2 persons holding something to block the wind.. what wind is it called?? sea breeze?? land breeze?? i think is sea breeze.. hahahaha but anyway we finally started the fire but no one is fanning it... so we used up all 20 starters.. and for the wire thingy, we used aluminium fol to wrap each line... and put the wire thingy on the aluminium lines.. jolyn and i fanning the fire... and when we see richard we so happy that we just pass the 'fans' to him... even though he say he do not know how to do it... we just walked along the beach... 7 of us start and end the bbq... hahaha so i reach home at 11 something... today is the release of the semestral results... :| so scary!! yesterday sook wern is saying she afraid... but i am sure all of us do well right?? positive thinking... hehehehe :D

copycat... meOw hahaha :)

2004-05-24T12:03:00.000+08:00

The test that jolyn did...
http://www.naucon.net/misc/tests/love_test01.htm

The interpretations that i get...
1. You are attracted to those who are elegant and well-mannered.

2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you
feel irresistable is moods-swing, blow hot and cold in love,
vacillate.

3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is loyal,
faithful, never change.

4. You don't like it when your partner is emotional and/or too
moody; and you don't know how to please him/her.

5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your
partner is one that you care not only about the present but
also the future with your partner, a long-lasting relationship
that you can grow with.

6. You care about the society and morality, you won't do anything
wrong after marriage.

7. You are afraid of marriage, you think it would take away your
freedom.

8. At this moment, you don't want to be tied down by a steady
relationship, you just want to flirt around.

I wonder this test how true.. hahahaha :P

missed the old days!! ;(

2004-05-22T13:15:00.000+08:00

Today nothing much happening.. except talking to my secondary school friend (Leoana)..Kind of missing secondary school days... :( but cannot stay in the past right?? Have to move forward... :) not been writing in the blog for so long.. nothing exciting happening...

2004-05-13T15:08:00.000+08:00

Today is a very hot day...Especially these few days not only today.. anyway today i do nothing much... a bit here and a bit there... :)My desk is still as messy as ever.. hahahaha... There is 4 dolphins on the court downstairs... Most likely charred and heat stroke due to the sun... Hee hee...(Is not real dolphins... made out of wires):P nothing much to write today.. so i end here..

2004-05-10T09:20:00.000+08:00

Last friday (7 may 04) is my last paper and the last day of year 1 semester 2.. so sad isnt it?? :( Too fast... If time continues this way, i will be graduating sooner than i expect.. even though is left with 2 years.. Do you agree?? yesterday (9 may 04) is mothers' day.. We celebrate mothers' day already.. earlier by 1-2 weeks.. oh before i forget.. yesterday i have to eat the HORRIBLE medicine again... and i take about 1 and a few minutes to eat finish... and i also let out tears.. but not tears of joy but tears of sadness... i also watched the show again... named good idea if i not wrong.. i make a mess of my desk table.. now is really messy.. can you imagine??

2004-05-06T12:46:00.000+08:00

It has been long since i wrote in the blog...on sunday (2/5/04) i saw this programme on channel u.. it is on so called DIY things.. then i find it interesting and wants to learn how to do.. i like suddenly want to do DIY stuffs like that.. so rash right?? then i yesterday saw this programme going to other people's house and see all the things she do herself.. i also feel like doing especially the box that can placed earrings inside... (anyway both the programmes is taiwanese shows, it seems like in taiwan it is easy to find the materials...) hahahaha like so inspired to do like that... :D tomorrow is the last paper to my examinations but seems like i not worried about it ... i everytime do not feel like studying and would force myself to study... recently have the computer virus which affects worldwide and singapore not so affected by it.. i wonder who is the inconsiderate person who set the virus freely.. better go back to studying... :)

2004-04-30T15:50:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, i have the first paper... medical sociology (HS 1032)... To tell you the truth, actually i no confident when i was doing the paper.. do not ask me why... then i tell myself (i tell quite alot of people..) that i get a grade c for all three papers i would be happy already... (but i know when i get my results i will say why i didnt work hard and i can get better results...) Man will never be satisfied with what they have... that i agree... :) Actually i feel that the load get off my mind but then i am stressed again after my friend, amanda message me to go out... She say because our friend, shahzia is going back to canada soon this weekend.. then is like supposed to go out today but she have something on tonight so we escaped... hehehehehe... i say tomorrow but then she going back... amanda say she can eat shit and during my holidays we will go out.. Anyway back to today... today is my second paper on introduction to therapeutic intervention... (HS 1029)... so happy still have one week for the next paper... :P so can so called rest...hehehehehehehe... i find this paper ok... so i will just stay satisfied with my c grade... (as long i pass at least c grades for the three papers i will be :D ) jenny say everytime didnt mention her name in the blog... then now mention her name... she say during the exam.. she see the option have radial pulse, carotid pulse and two other options... she ask us who choose radial pulse.. we say no.. then she was wondering who will choose and want to laugh at her... she so mean... :P (just kidding...) I am quite hypocritical... even though i do not like the person, i will still talk to her like cheryl ... i am like that.. but i was thinking if i do not talk to her then i find the friendship going to break is like quite a pity (i feel)... so i do not know... is so hard to break friendship just because of what she do... haiz.. do you find me like that???? :S

2004-04-26T13:18:00.000+08:00

I found this in my email.... as i was born in september, so here it is... (my character?!?!?!)

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Trustworthy, loyal and honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and travelling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Choosy especially in relationships. Loves wide things. Systematic.

some is not true about me... :P

Today i have to go to school for remedial lessons... First lesson is HS 1032... i understands what she teach but as for the lecture notes, i cannot really remember what is inside there... but i will try my best to... no choice right?? Next lesson is HS 1029... hhmmm... i wonder how she will revise with us... hope to be able to sit down on chairs instead of floors... :D

2004-04-23T09:52:00.000+08:00

i forget to tell u something.. when on our way back, we passed by this room as jolyn wanted to say bye bye to all the patients there... Then beforehand, she was talking to him saying that he fall down because of pretty nurses... jolyn say she will introduce some pretty nurses to him...(but i think he have girlfriend) anyway when reach there, jolyn say bye bye to that patient that fall down... and ask him whether i am pretty (if i not wrong)... I feel so weird and shy after that... (slightly embarrassed though) jolyn is always very kind... jolyn also pretty girl right??? We tell this incident to others and they all laughed... but i think amy and michelle is prettier (dont you think??)... (but they have boyfriend already)

2004-04-23T09:37:00.000+08:00

I have to type all over again my blog... because there is an error... The last time i typed my blog was on the beginning of the week... now is coming to the end of the week and here i am typing my blog... Today was my last day of my attachmnet... You must be thinking that 'I cant wait for this attachment to end' but .... I also have this feeling that my examinations is coming which is just next thursday... (i havent study finish yet only few chapters...) so haiz... i checked the VTP posting today... jolyn sms me telling me that it is out already... She also tell me which ward we are posted to and whether have some of our classmates or not... yesterday (22/4) our lecturer wanted us to meet her and to present our work to her and the rest of the people... Luckily for the behind people we do not have to present at all (i think because not enough time.. :D) so i failked my post operative care and passed the rest... so i think i passed overall?!? I think so only... hhhmmm... nothing much happened yesterday except that i made alot of mistakes.. the staff nurse say that it is part of the learning process so i am learning...

2004-04-19T17:25:00.000+08:00

hhmmm... today is my second week of attachment (i mean for hospital posting..) and i does not seem excited about it... but i am excited to see all the familiar faces that i can see today... both from my class and other class.. hee hee... i not excited in the sense that the examinations is coming right after this week... haiz... and that is going to be a busy day today... Oh well, what to do? i choose this course in the first place and i MUST NOT regret it... right? Luckily for us, we do not have the teacher that we do not really like.. (i do not want to mention names.. all those who with me should know...) We have the teacher who really willing to teach us.. so happy... :D and somemore jolyn's and mine clinical teacher!! At least she willing to teach us not like somebody and she teaches us the right way (that's what i think)... We have to do assessment, master problem list, care plan, pre-operative care and post operative care on wednesday...We have to bring our clinical diary and learning guide on thursday..but she will guide us along if in doubt... (that's good) When she ask us whether we do certain things.. we did not really admit that we did and not... (kind of tricky though hehehehe :P) I just hope that we get the lecturer for the rest of my attachments..(i do not think is possible though..) i also hope that jolyn do not slip into depression.. (cheer up jolyn... you will be able to make it!!!)

2004-04-18T12:27:00.000+08:00

I am going to quote jolyn's words... haiz.. is another day of attachment.. hehehehe (actually tomorrow is then the start of another week of attachment...) :P I wanted to check the schedule for VTP (vacational training practise) but have not come out yet... (as usual) >:( but anywhere my sister recently bought an anime cartoon called looking for full moon (i think is like that.. direct translation from chinese) quite nice though and i think i am addicted to it.. ooppss... My sister say alot of people post in internet to say that the story is quite touching...(i think that ending going to be quite sad.. :'() hhmm.. today is a very warm day as usual...(until i cannot stand it like yesterday's weather..) today try to study but got distracted... have to study no choice after next week on the thursday is the examinations... then not really enough time left.. but being very distracted.. i will delay my time for studying... (naughty naughty) i am like that.. i hope my friends study hard too... jolyn also put the white cat on her blog.. hehehehe the cat cute right??? lolx... i hope fiona and jolyn enjoy their day.... :)

2004-04-15T16:59:00.000+08:00

I know you may think that polyclinic will not learn much... but it seems like i learn something there in this polyclinic and make new friends..(it is so coincidence that we are all in different groups and in running order group 27, 28, 29 and 30) hee hee... i do not know why i feel this way but i seems to learn alot and more hands on there.. :D I hope jolyn will join me next round... including jenny...We (the 6 of us) talked alot today from studies, examination results to ...(i do not know i kind of forget...) During our break, we also talked about something that i also forget... then after that (i think) we have a meeting with the staff nurse... discussions of each of the rooms and she mostly give us the information... we also watched a video on antenatal care in the morning.. after the break, we (lathiga and myself) went back to the room.. we talked to the staff nurse about her past experience which was quite inspirational?! We learnt from the experience and then i told qian ru that i prefer to have a stricter teacher (who will give her own make up case studies actually can make you learn more...remind me of the staff nurse's sister who was like that)... qian ru laughed and say you like the teacher to torture you... (in a laughing manner)... i do not know why i say that... :P

2004-04-14T21:35:00.000+08:00

I just found a cute thing (called Neko) at http://webneko.net/ (actually found it at somebody's blog first then double click go to the actual website..)... just click on the cat on the left hand corner and it will follow wherever your mouse goes.. (Try it!!)

2004-04-14T21:04:00.000+08:00

Ok.. Now proceed to today's blog (14/4) ...(Finally!!!) *phew* today we (the same persons again..) went to the family planning room.. if you did read the previous blogs, you will know that that room is for.... family planning like PAP smear and that kind of stuffs... but anyway i find the other nurse nicer than the other one.. the other one do not really like you to ask questions and each time you ask, she will say you did not pay attention.. (like what jathiga say she talked too fast and we did not manage to write it or follow psychology.. we only remembers the front and the back part of the conversation...forget it maybe she finds that we should be able to learn fast.. we learn quite alot of things and took alot of phamflets too.. (like the previous rooms.. hee hee) *quite hardworking..and useful..*We managed to witness the PAP smear but i am not going to tell here as it is not suitable.... (i feel that) anyway we only witness 2-4 cases only.. the others do not allow... even my mum also would not allow anyone to see... (i ask her) i know is like *quite shy*... We also do quite alot of paperwork (running errands, photocopying..).. helping the nurses when they busy and they allow us to participate in those we know like take blood pressure, height, weight and BMI... overall is meaningful days for all the previous and today rooms that i gone to...manage to do some of the things there... p.s on the first day, the staff nurse told us that we will like it there at the polyclinic on the second day.. i guess is true..hope me and jolyn will be attached in the same polyclinic next semester... :D

2004-04-14T19:59:00.000+08:00

P.S jolyn and i in the same rooms for each day but different polyclinic...Now i shall type for Tuesday (13/4)... (naughty naughty) Today we (lathiga and myself) went to the immunisation room.. interesting room and busy day indeed... In immunisation room, we will learn about the injections (of course!) but no chance to write.. busy playing and watching the babies and children coming in...All the babies cry upon inserting the needle of the syringe in but only ONE did not... He is a 5 months old baby and is quite chubby... when the saff nurse insert the needle, he did not cry at all...(miracle) There is one who bend the needle sideways...When we free, we will collect all the papers in the boxes called literature (not the one we learn in secondary school but i do not know the spelling) and start discussing about each of the medications... We also saw the emergency trolley in the room.. and the staff nurse told us to know the basics of it..(hhmm... i think she mean all the essential items i think).. the immunisations have different age groups to take.. have to remember all...*headache* i also forgotten about the medications we learn last semester...*ooopppsss* that is not a good thing.. go and revise.. hehehehestill have about fever management, cold chain and national immune registry... don not forget the dosages of each of the medications... i hope jolyn remembers to take the 'literature'... if not, don worry jolyn, i will lend u mine... :D

2004-04-14T19:28:00.000+08:00

Yesterday actually i typed the blog for monday half way but decided to sign out due to personal reasons.. :P
hhhmmm.. so now should i typed monday's blog or today's blog?? :S Anyway i will write from the start first so i type the monday (12/4) blog first... Today is my first day of attachment in polyclinic and first time in a different polyclinic.. i reached there early as usual and saw a long line till the bus stop there... (wow so long.. then today sure busy one i thought) I met qian ru and the others... (actually i know that qian ru is in the same polyclinic as me.. jolyn told me) As another girl and myself is new to this polyclinic, we were shown around while the others went to their respective rooms... We were shown a 'video' (which is the senior staff nurse talked about the polyclinic..) She talked quite a long time though.. (lolx) On this very day, my friend Lathiga and i stayed at room 80 (Developmental Assessment)... this is where all the babies get assessed according to their different ages.. for example, 9 months have to measure weight, height, sound test (listen to the rattle [high] and the block in the cup [low]), control hands and legs, grip the paper with 2 fingers, eye test (the 'magic' pictures), test whether the child is allergic to egg yolk and egg white by giving a little and not forgetting the head circumference... Other than the 9 months old, there are also 3 day baby ,12 day baby and 4 years old... The lecturer came this afternoon and i was caught not cutting my nails... (ooppss) The lecturer talked about each of the rooms function... She also told her life stories to us.. hee hee.. interesting stories.. after that, we went back to our rooms.. :D On that very day, i just found out from my handphone that joly message me.. Next day, i look in my blog and found out that jolyn misses me..(aaawwww...) feel so touched but no choice.. next week can see her anyway... :P

2004-04-11T19:00:00.000+08:00

I do this quiz on fiona's blog...(just do it)
my japanese ninja burger name is Ushitora Hayashida -san... how do you pronunce this..
:S i do not know... lolx

I did another quiz last minut but same website...

Ninja Burger RPG Clan Quiz
The following results represent the best matches based on your answers, in descending order from best match to worst match; the top match is pictured below. Matches of greater than 33% accuracy are shown in yellow. If you for some reason skipped more than three questions (about 17%), then the results will be rather more inconclusive.

Here are your results Ushitora Hayashida -san:
Keepers of the Secret Sauce 37%
Clan of the 1000 Islands 25%
Brotherhood of Blue Trees 12%
Lo Cal 12%
Clan of the Hidden Ranch 6%
House Gaijin 6%
Questions not answered 0%

2004-04-11T18:27:00.000+08:00

Today i read the newpaper (sunday 11 April 2004) and saw the headlines..' Why so stupid...' then i turn to the page and found out something.. some china people find singaporeans too proud.. at first they (singaporeans) will be nice and helpful but when get to know them better, they will be proud...and singaporeans say that they (china people) are on tuition grant from government.... In my opinion, i find that both sides is at wrong... not all singaporeans are proud like they claimed.. and both sides should work hand in hand toward their future... today i saw the movie ' Passion of Christ'.. it is quite touching and horrifying... especially the part where they nail Jesus on the cross and the soldiers whipped him using unusual weapons to torture him... i think everyone cried..(including jolyn, her mother [maybe], jenny [maybe], her mother [maybe] and myself) chinese drama series always says man are kind by nature.. in this movie, man are evil by nature... so is man evil or kind by nature??? :S jolyn says man are both evil and kind by nature like the both of us (jolyn and myself as we also will have evil thoughts [evil])... :O jolyn and myself ate sushi together... and went cranky together as usual.. but we ate alot of beans... hehehehe we ate and ate until we start playing the food.. naughty naught.. lolx... we walked aroung the cards an such and times bookstore... i think we stuff ourself with too much sushi as our stomach feels bloated.. :D

2004-04-10T11:31:00.000+08:00

i feel so irritated today.. everything seems to go wrong for me.. i try using the han shen to type chinese but no words came out.. then i want to change the background but cannot find any html..(to tell you the truth i do not even know where is it..) the website tell me to sign in i sign in but then i still cannot download.. will somebody help me??? :S feel so sianz.. hhmm.. i think everyone also faces this problem before.. the feeling of being lost and confusion.. especially when attachment just started or you are unfamiliar with computers including the internet stuff ... :( tomorrow going to watch the passion of christ with jenny and joly (both names start with the letter 'J' hehehehe :D) i think eveline also coming?! after the movie we going to eat sushi.. *YUMMY* very long did not eat already... i am going to enjoy every moment of it.. hehehehe :P

2004-04-09T17:34:00.000+08:00

Today nothing happen.. try to study but no mood to.. I was thinking do i really enjoy the attachment like 'another new day' or do i find it like 'aiya another day of attachment'.. i do not really know.. :S anyway i watched television as usual... i see my notebook and find that there is alot of notes inside.. do not really know what to say actually... Oh yea today is good friday.. easter bunny.. hehehehe

2004-04-08T16:22:00.000+08:00

Today is the last day of the week for attachment.. 2 more weeks to go.. Today considered a bad day for me too.. as the lecturer scolded my friend (amy) and myself of something that we did not say at all.. :( i almost burst out crying (but i did not).. Even though we with our lecturer only for 4 days.. To tell the truth, we do not really know her at all (i find that)... The lecturer expects us to take our own initiative to find work to do, show our objectives for the week and if any problems can ask her.. but only one of us do that.. i guess that most of us ask the staff nurse or the year 2 and 3 instead of the lecturer...Each day for tiring for me and my legs (especially the past 4 days)... i think i am not the only one feeling that way.. I am happy to see some of the patients discharged these few days.. and i really hope they will recovery soon and do not have to come back again.. hhmm.. i guess everyone is tired and happy that the week ends already...

2004-04-07T07:47:00.000+08:00

This test i took from http://www.idealpartner.org.uk/ipbi/WhatJob.asp
I find the test quite true..

Ki System

Natal Year number: 6
With a strong sense of responsibility for her family and close friends, Alina has a tendency to blame herself if anything should go wrong, even if it is clearly not her fault. She will work long and hard - perhaps too hard for her own good - and unless she is careful her life may lack the fun, humour and social activity that would force her to be more outward looking. This in turn makes her careful with money in the sense that she will apply funds only to those things that are of the utmost importance to her. She holds strong views from which she will not easily be moved.

Natal Month number: 7
Alina is a good communicator and enjoys discussion, but she will avoid stressful situations and arguments. She is a fund of new ideas that spill from her active brain with great rapidity, but her business dealings will always be constrained by her desire to be liked. She therefore lacks those long-term goals that would bring her prosperity.

Natal House number: 4
With a strong sense of justice, Alina has a balanced but independent view of the major issues affecting life, yet lacks attention to detail. Inclined to leave things until the very last minute, she will struggle in any employment until she is sufficiently senior to have someone else put into effect the many good ideas that she will contribute.

Comments based on Western Grid

1

Although Alina may be reasonably talkative in public, she finds it difficult to express personal feelings to those closest to her. In employment terms, this inhibition is of little consequence.

22

Highly intelligent and acutely sensitive, Alina is a good judge of other people's motives and character. She enjoys high intelligence, and with a number 7 (in the Western Grid) she would be suited to a vocation in the priesthood. Sensitive to the needs of others, Alina should be employed to the benefit of those who lack the advantages enjoyed by others.

5

Well-balanced, with an understanding and compassionate nature, Alina is a natural leader who can inspire others. But she needs a certain amount of freedom at work and at home. With a compassionate and caring nature, and with the ability to get on well with others, Alina will be a strong member of any team and will provide solid inspiration and support to her colleagues.

8

Good with details and with a methodical approach, Alina nevertheless is someone who enjoys constant new challenges to maintain her interest. She is a methodical individual with attention to detail, but is inclined to leave tasks unfinished if her active mind alights on something of greater interest. Routine tasks that fail to challenge her intellect are at greatest risk, so Alina needs a job that offers variety.

99

Enjoying high intelligence, Alina is inclined to look down on those who are not as intelligent as she. Hence she does not mix well with society in general, and in particular with different social strata. Yet Alina is very ambitious to improve her lot, and will constantly strive for a better standard of living. She also possesses strong humanitarian ideals that may find expression in charitable work.
[The Arrow of Determination: the numbers 1, 5 and 9] Determined and persistent, Alina has the patience to wait until she has achieved her goal. She enjoys a progressive and enterpreneurial approach, and as such, will be an asset to any employer. If the number 4 (in the Western Grid) is missing, she will be inclined to lose her temper on occasions.
[The Arrow of Emotional Balance: the numbers 2, 5 and 8] Understanding and compassionate, Alina is well-balanced. She possesses sound leadership qualities that are of use in a wide variety of jobs. With an understanding and compassionate nature, Alina can appreciate the views of others, and thus gain the respect of the community in which she lives or works.

Comments based on Chinese Grid

1

Alina will make some money and enjoy a reasonable standard of living.

5

Emotionally well-balanced, Alina is not too intense, and will reach the right decisions. However, with the numbers 2 and 3 in the Chinese version, the balance may be upset.

888

Although Alina may have struggled during her youth, in later years she will flourish in business and become a financial success.

9

Although Alina is ambitious, her ambition is tempered with humanitarian ideals.
[The Arrow of Willpower: The numbers 1, 5 and 9] Alina is somewhat stubborn and very determined. Holding strong opinions that she will voice without reservation, she will nevertheless reach her goals through persistent hard work.
[The Arrow of Apathy: Lacking the numbers 2, 6 and 7] Alina lacks the will to succeed. Somewhat indecisive, she will miss opportunities and avoid risk. Alina needs to recognise that life's chances must be grasped with both hands when the opportunity arises.